The "Silver Lining"
/ Michael TrovatoI’ve never been the biggest “taking pictures” person, at least not when it comes to taking pictures of myself and posting them to social media. I take pictures of things— events, scenic views, or landmarks— more than I take pictures of myself. If I do take a picture of myself, chances are it’ll go through various levels of self-scrutiny, personal deliberation, and near-deletion before I finally decide to post it to Instagram or Facebook.
A large part of this reason? I generally don’t like the way I look in pictures. When I see a picture of myself, more often than not, my first inclination is to pick it apart and find something critical. The narrative is always relatively similar:
My smile was weird.
My hair looks messy.
My posture is awkward.
But mostly, I look fat.
Needless to say, this makes the holidays a stressful time of year, and for a few reasons. Don’t get me wrong— generally, I do enjoy the holidays and the feelings of anticipation and excitement to see friends and family. With these reunions come many a photo opportunity, a chance to capture these moments so that we can one day look back on them and remember the good times.
Sure, these photo ops carry a mostly nice sentiment. Still, the holidays can also stir up feelings of insecurity when you’re surrounded by the temptation of rich, heavy food and delicious desserts— especially when you don’t like the way you look in pictures. Every holiday party is an excuse to eat something sugary, salty, and/or fattening, take more photos which provide another visual reminder of just how incredibly insecure I am about my body.
And yet, I still find it hard to resist trying the next cookie, to have “just one more scoop” of that savory side dish, or the urge to cook a gigantic feast fit for 20 for my family of 7. It’s ironic on some level, frustrating on another, and while I’ll still enjoy this holiday season as I have in most years past, each picture will serve as a reminder that I showed too little self-control, ate too much, and once again, gained a few extra pounds that are becoming harder and harder to lose.
The “silver lining” through all of this?
At least I’ll have something to work on for my New Year’s resolution.
What do you struggle with around the holiday season?
What holiday food is your guilty pleasure?
Share your comments at the bottom of the page.
Whatismyhealth © 2018
A recent chain of events that has led me to, dare I say it... feel good about myself again.
Holiday photo ops carry a mostly nice sentiment, but can also be a reminder of our body insecurities.
Do you ever just read or hear something and immediately the connection you have with it is soul-affirming?
When do children stop trying being themselves and start striving to be like others, judging those who are not alike?
I still feel the need to have an extra change of clothes, or avoid being sweaty for extended periods of time around other people.
You never know who deals with the same things you do. Anything you’re going through can be worked through.
Every woman looks differently, grows babies differently, and experiences pregnancy and childbirth differently.
My mental and physical health remains in a constant state of limbo; some days are better than others.
We may not get back to where we once were, but we can fight to get closer to where we want to be.
What rings true for so many parents is the desire to protect our children from the things we’ve struggled with ourselves.
It’s amazing how much of a difference facial hair can make in terms of the way we view someone’s physical appearance.
Senior citizens are deserving of more respect, dignity, and reverence than they are given.
Getting fit is hard. Even tougher is getting back into shape after falling out of a routine.
Would our perceptions of ourselves change if the things we were watching told us differently?
You can choose to see the beauty and strength in yourself and others, because we all have it.
After a few shirts start to stretch, you realize you may have put on a little more than “a few pounds.”
I’ve spent much of my life being uncomfortable with my body, but what I have learned isn’t for nothing.
Remember when movement consisted of having fun? This is what movement should be like, always.
The things that negative body image steals from us on a daily basis is something we shouldn’t have to accept.
We can’t help how much space we take up, but we can all be considerate of each other’s space.
On the day when we celebrate freedom, it can be a struggle not to be trapped by the urge to overeat.
There have been a lot of struggles in my life, especially when it has come to loving myself.
It’s hard to look in the mirror and like what I see, but I am beautiful because I decided that I am.
You have to find your own reasons to overcome the negative way you see and feel about yourself.